Being in love means

getting so happy to get your message that

I could forgo eye makeup for today,

because I know someone likes me the way I am.

I miss you :)

B.

Only as it's been spoken,

do I realise that I'm still who I am.

Though my recent behaviour may state that

I've moved on to becoming someone who remains a casual attitude

on the topic of relationships,

as far as I understand,

I haven't.

I've done things that would not be considered proper by some,

but though they didn't quite last,

those moments were remembered.

I don't just let anyone come to me,

without being attracted in the first place.

And I still long for a relationship that carries substance,

expecting exchanges of knowledge,

instead of just pure physical needs.

I get attached.

summer - a season of separation?

Well you done done me,

And you bet I felt it.

I tried to chill,

but you're so hot that I melted.

I fell right through the cracks,

and I'm trying to get back.

--

I miss you so bad,

it's gross.

Why are all summers the indication of separation?

Or distance.

I want to bring in some meaning to this one, eventhough it may not last.

8 more days.

Fast forward this week please.

B.

I'm scared to face another day,

'Cause the fear in me won't walk away,

In an instance,

You were gone,

And I am scared.

--

Are you avoiding me?

It's a wake up call, telling me we're not what I thought we were.

And it's alright,

Really.

x

If I could,

Could let you know,

I'd...

change my facebook status now, to:

"Ruby Chan is thinking of you"

because it is not only when I see those dumb folders that you'd come to my mind,

but in fact, most of the times, from I-dont-know-when,

you'd be in my head.

Wth.

I hope my feelings aren't going to be toyed with again.

Neither do I hope they're a result of a misunderstanding in the signals you send me.

You must think I'm crazy if you ever would see this.

B.

Again and again and again and again...

You tell me I'm a 'friend'

and I'm lost again.

- Bee

BRRRRR...IBRRESULTS

These days,

you've become some sort of my emotional reliance,

someone I could mutually always know,

would listen to me, with whatever I'm about to say.

Just you being away and out of reach for two days,

one of which, today, has been rather important to me,

has made it more difficult to cope with.

You've dropped me with enough survival tips

and exchanges of encouragements

prior to your leave, so I'm learning

to live with what I have in my hands.

Just want to say thank you,

despite my disadvantaged position.

I let you down a bit, didn't I?

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IB results were released today.

I did quite badly,

scoring the extremeties all in all.

Apart from Econ and EVS,

the rest were expected.

Just why, did I score close to the worst possible for a subject I adore?

I hate anticipation.