What is fate?

Do you realise that there are times when you know what you're about to do isn't right, but you believe it's going to happen anyway...
then turns out something helps you to turn it down without your indication of any means to decline it?

How about when you do want something bad enough to die for, but it doesn't...?

I don't know if you do believe it or not, but I feel that some things are meant to happen in one's life and some aren't,

yet we can't help but question the possibility of things that we think are about to happen, "will I really be able to make it tomorrow?", "will that really happen to me?", these questions are almost rhetorical in a way really, when our life is set ahead of us...

Is that all fate?

just a thought.

- Bee*

Summer has come,

and the 4 weeks have gone by in a mere glance. Time flies by amazingly quickly when the seas are calm, but at this rate of productivity, I cease to see what is happening ahead of time.
I don't like how the school pressure manages to creep up on us like this, while we're on our break, but yet I really couldn't get myself to face up with the work, its just too much, I need fresh air, fun, and a bit of freedom.

Why don't the goldfishes stop eating when they're full,
don't they know they'll soon die of indigestion?

Why doesn't the school stop packing us with pressure,
don't they know its unhealthy?

All I want is but several weeks of holiday where 'work' is a word crossed out of my dictionary.

photo credits to my dear friend, Cynthia
taken on a fine day on the roof garden of ifc :]

everyone else out there, please enjoy this release of freedom!

-Bee

Phee-wew!

The summer break sure's whipping-by fast!

Without a sound, we've already moved into the 2 out of 8 weeks of our holiday (sad, really) and I can't believe the amount of work and changes I have in front of me, which I'm bout to face very shortly. Very. So I've spent the past weekend setting up my new room, aside from just sweeping floors and wiping windows and drawing curtains, it was also about getting my hands and feet working, knocking in nails, tightening scews, putting together furniture! I'm rather proud of myself actually... :]

Okey yeah so I know my room is not exactly big but here are the pictures anyway =]
(sorry that last one there was especially bad)


so yeah.

and..
:]

have a great summer everyone,
while I move on with a million things on my itenerary.

- Bee*

time is running out...

Notice me, Want me, then Take me.

We don't have much time, you know? There are just way too many things that are all happening at once, and this all is more than I could cope with. It is because I can't manage my life well that I'd feel like I'm living on a planet that spins twice as fast as my peers.

My therapy for this is to drown myself in the world of romantic comedies, into the world of fiction, so things could be orderly and perfect for at least an hour each day.

- Bee

Black...Saturday?

Haven't had the chance to update in a long while, previously the exams, and recently, just about everything. Things don't go as well as I thought they would, definitely, in almost all aspects of my life- in fact, I think it's a chain reaction. So something bad happening in one would lead to that in the other...

My list of worries are:
1. My Grades
2. My Future
3. My current social life/ interaction with my family and friends.

All the while recieving my poorly graded examination results, on the other hand my social life's giving in. In fact, I'm in the middle of a fight with a friend at the moment. This then leads me to think about what I'll be doing with my future. With a 'fail' for math this year and a report that's gone down by 5 points, I seriously have no idea which university would like to accept me as a business student.

So much for fulfilling my dream as too becoming a marketing director in the future.

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-Bee

I wish I was good as math.
Just being able to cope well with the standard course would do, really.

:'[

When you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are Anything your heart desires will come to you If your heart is in your dreams, no request is too extreme When you wish upon a star as dreamers do Fate is kind, she brings to those who love The sweet fulfillment of their secret longing Like a bolt out of the blue, fate steps in and sees you through When you wish upon a star, your dreams come true



This song is timeless, but I really do wish that its lyrics is what happens in real life. As much as I know it isn't, I am still, somehow, able to take comfort when I listen to this song. Looking back, I think its because it used to be the song featured on my baby toy - a room illuminator/lightbox with Disney characters floating about. I miss those days so much.

I've just realised I've almost forgotten about that toy. Perhaps its the same with many of my other 'favourites' back in those days, I only have two or three pieces that would always be present in my mental list.

I wish I could be that easily fulfilled again, who needs $2000 dollar-ed handbags and signature perfumes?

I wish I didn't have to work 6-days straight a week to complete my homework, this academic stress is really getting on to me.
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If you ever get to see this (which I hope you don't), I know its you. I've seen it yesterday but decided to pretend I haven't because I don't want to respond to it, taking either action could signify something so I'd rather leave it behind for the while. What I truly want, is to somehow get us talking again. That's it, really.
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I blush when I see you :)
So do a lot of girls, I believe. Are you used to getting all this attention?
I think I really should find some sort of replacement for you over the summer, so I don't end up suffering. I don't want to break down on the last week of school (why is it like this all the time?)

-Bee <3