And with the blink of an eye,

it's all been a year ago since this last happened.

Thank you, all of you.

It made a great difference, whether each and every one of you were here or not,

trust me.

So glad to be having such wonderful people in my life,

so fortunate.

xx

B.

Love is only beautiful when the feelings are mutual.

How cruel, immoral is the power of manipulation when it's housed under the roof of unrequited love?
I know I didn't like it;
to be cared for only when he had nothing better to do.
No one deserves to be treated like a doormat.

With the realisation of this,
I'm determined to make it clear for us
soon as the chance arrives.
It'll spare us both time, and hopefully hurt.

I don't get why my mom's simple

"Wish you a happy Birthday and good luck with the exams"

brought me a little tingle and tears to my eyes.

Happy that she remembers/cares,

sad that she's not physically here, a bit.

Just realised its the going to be the first Birthday I'll spend abroad,

it's strange.

Looks like there's many years of this to come...

xx

B.

While procrastinating on Ally McBeal,

something in the dialogue sparkled and made a lot of sense.

Man: "So you'd rather remain alone for the rest of your life?"

Ally: "I'd rather be alone than to be spending time with who I know is the wrong person".

Would you?

Her pure-minded self moves me,

that she still believes there is in fact, 'the one' waiting,

and that too many mistakes have taught her that no forced relationship

would ever result in anything good.

Does this McBeal-ism

still exist amongst eligible people?

Or is it as naive and unpractical as those who choose to

believe in unicorns?

B.

I won't mind having a fairy-tale wedding,

living a fairy-tale life...

--

If only sometimes, just sometimes,

we could know where the route ahead takes us.

If only we knew what's bound to happen and what things aren't;

who are we destined for,

what are we to achieve,

where do we land?

A girl could wonder.

B.

I love my friends.

They are the sweetest things;

just when you thought no one would catch you as you fall,

they come right up, but also give you the strength to stand up straight

it's one of the best feelings you could get from being loved.

Thank you, guys!

Now I know who'll deserve the same treatment in return.

xx

B.

Peek-a-boo,

I see...

--

but you're the wrong person!

*slams door*

__________

it's my turn perhaps,

at learning that people could be 'normal' friends.

And it's going to work this time,

I'll past this test.

:3

B.

I've just realised how hypocritical it is,

if not loserish,

for people to call others narcissistic

when it's their problem they don't like their own face enough.

Self confidence serves as the basic equipment

for someone to get a respected place on Earth,

and loving yourself is a great first-step.

I hope everyone could learn to love themselves a wee bit more today.

:D

B.

I'm starting to feel it again;

When people have been fighting at the warfront on their own for too long,

it's no longer an act of courage,

but solidarity.

Loneliness rushed behind my back today,

attacking me at the weakest hour.

I heard our song deep into the night,

and even our not so glorified past

seemed worthy of reminiscence.

Loneliness,

it's an ugly thing, isn't it?

B.

Where Do Lonely People Go?

Just to feel that little wrenching of muscles clasping at your heart,

the air pipe of your lungs tightening for a second, drenching air out;

that feeling of a heartbreak, once in a while,

through movies, books, tv shows...

it makes me feel more alive.

And when I see that he makes the girl cry,

makes me realise I have company and its quite alright to feel sad.

Out of all the emotions god has given us,

this is my favourite outlet.

Its the organic cool-aid,

self-therapy.

B.

Ambient sounds

are a reminder that the Earth, now matter what happens,

is still a beautiful place.

I realise we need that sometimes,

every now and then.

http://www.whitevinyldesign.com/solarbeat/

B.