I frenched a frenchie.

At a club,

and especially under the chemical influence,

the crowd sways psychadelically to the heavy beats,

unaware of the world beyond the heavy doors and velvet drapes.

The lights are dim,

yet the attraction builds,

for everyone is equipped with a mysteriousness

that safeguards our deeper, darker secrets.

For the open minded,

it only takes a glance,

a certain posture,

to ignite a temporal flame.

As I walked in,

glass in hand,

all I saw was you.

Beautiful stranger,

with an unclean shave,

short brunette hair,

and kind green eyes.

I must say;

I miss your embrace.

Though we've only just met,

our encounter,

our little dance,

your touch,

all carried a sense of familarity.

I don't like the fact that I've left without further contact,

that kiss was not good enough for eternal departure,

it broke my heart.

Still,

perhaps I shall not yearn no more,

I shall appreciate that it happened,

and I met you.

Find me.

I don't know what to do with you,

I need help.

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Loneliness is a feeling of emptiness, endless pondering, 

just as an attempt to fill a punctured bucket is pointless,

it leaves one with no space for gratitude and appreciation of events occuring in the outside world.

Forever trapping an individual in the back of his subconscious mind,

a never-ending lair/labyrinth of darkness.

I'm slowly climbing back up to see the light.

But you weren't there.

Perhaps, that's why I was climbing up in the first place, because of your absence.

You're hazardous.

-B

Thank you all for the love <3

In one's lifetime, he progresses through different stages of life,

so to say, each post is significant in the way that it introduces a new way of life,

new perspectives, knowledge, and the accumulation of experiences.

So far, I've made it to my first major post.

At 18, I'm nothing really,

but I could see the things I'm about to come in contact with, 

and panic about what I don't already yet know.

While the anxiety prevails in my head for my future encounters with the unknowns,

I'm indeed impressed by t

he amount of love and treasury family and friends have provided me all these years.

just want to give everyone a big thank you :]

<3

-Bee

I don't want to be like you.

Most of today was quite pleasant actually,
until I got your call.
It was supposed to be a greeting, was it not?
An early birthday greeting,
and an extension of an invitation to my very own birthday dinner.

But how 'bout this:
It was all very nice of you,
except it wasn't the least bit inviting.
You could use a little bit of adjustment in terms of how you choose to deliver your words,
more gratitude, less blame.

Actually, I don't even understand where the blame came in.
Why, because it's going to be my day soon!?
Did I anger you when I haven't met you in two weeks straight?

Well I'm glad you thought of me anyway.

And I hate the fact that I'm growing up to look a increasingly like you.

// Done with my exams btw! Sorry about not updating!
I can't wait till Grad/Grad Ball/ Grad trip.
WHHEEEEE.

Almost there.

10 down, 2 more papers to write.

I hope my final grades would satisfy my offer.

I will be admitted to Aston!

I WILL BE.

It gets me scared  really, to see how badly I've been performing lately,

the lack of motivation is a bad sign for a person in hope for any form of return with academic results.

*shudders*

I'm letting myself down.
I wanted to do well in my finals, so I could get into the school of my choice.
That was all within reach,
until I've decided to slack-off last minute,
during the study break and all those times that I'd rather waste time than to be productive.
I asked for it all.
Really.