Why is fate driving me through and down this road again?

I would admit I'm a bit afraid of what it is to come,

but nonetheless I would remain being myself,

and stand firm on my own two feet.

So what if people leave me?

It is more than obvious, in this situation, who's taken up the right side and who hasn't.

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Which brings me to;

I'm trying very hard to understand why there are so many people in this world who are immature to this level and degree. Are they unable to evaluate what's a "should" and "shan't"?

Is it not time that I get shown that the world and it's people isn't turning to a position worse off?

My confidence and prospects for the people in our generation is dying.

B

I realised that I've

gotten over you,

a foolish, foolish crush that was never to result into anything in the first place.

B.

Sorry guys, these crappy phone pictures would just have to do for now.

My lovely little DC got stolen :[

What are the things that determine whether two individuals are meant to be or not?

I wish there was a definite answer to things like that,

and secretly hope some fortune teller working a crystal ball could tell me whether the subject of pursuit is worth chasing after or not.

Yet,

what makes the journey of life so incredible

is the fact that it's fully equipped with unexpected twists and turns,

like going on a camping expedition without plans, maps and aids.

Well,

let's see what's going to happen round the bend then?

B.

I'd rather be left unnoticed;

Don't give me hope if this is not what you want,

It hurts?

Sometimes I wish I were an object so I didn't have to have any emotional attachments,

with anything at all.

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btw my camera's been stolen (by some asshole)

so it'll be a while till I have fresh pictures to put up.

B.

I guess some things are hard to maintain,

and pointless to do so too.

Finding out this way is still less painful I guess,

than having to face it up AND quickly come up with a good reaction.

Can I wish for something though?

Preserve the little bit of what we've had?

Thanks.

xx

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God and,

I need to start finding the right people.

Or let the right people find me.

How does that even work?

I'm so sick of being the initiator.

B

The world as we percieve it, as it percieves us.

In our daily lives,

we often have to move about,

to and fro places that aren't reserved for our private use,

hence coming across numerous strangers, faces,

with each turn about to the corner,

or each bus ride.

When we arrive upon the topic of human interaction,

had there been two complete strangers,

and no 'man in the middle' to, perhaps, join up the points,

the only way a linkage could be drawn is completely left to the situation.

Had there been pressure that the whole point of a certain gathering was to mingle,

eg: parties, getting-to-know-yous, speed-dating,

then the chances of one approaching another is almost definite.

But had it been other circumstances,

such as being enclosed in a limited amount of space together in a forceful way,

awkwardness prevails.

But to break the ice,

it takes eye contact, initiation and etcetera.

This girl, she had beautiful dark eyes.

Me, being the shallow,

afraid of being too much of a stand-out under circumstances where I'm on my own,

I classified her, the avoiding glance and all-black apparel, as an 'emo'.

Had I felt rejected to any further friendly gestures,

because I assumed 'people of her type', they tend to not respond,

and I didn't want to feel embarassed,

- I pulled on an expressionless face.

Minutes later, when we made proper eye contact,

she smiled at me briefly,

only to be greeted by the cold front I've unconsciously set up.

Startled when I realised how I've chosen to conform to the other's ways of which I'd normally disapprove of,

I however, did not bother to correct what I've done,

but to shamefully look away and avoid her glances,

just so the other passengers would not think me queer for having made a big deal out of nothing.

Why is it that we've come to a stage where we allow peer pressure to change our values of what is right and wrong? Had I gone up and had the patience to endure the awkwardity of it all, I might've made a new friend with someone from a completely different background. How would it even have affected others, have I done this?

I think it's time to re-evaluate what the world, with all it's people,

make of us.

B.

I can't stand waiting any longer

I thought it was some sign from above,

for I finally had something and someone new to be after.

But no,

Fate's chosen to be cruel yet once again.

Yesterday came by so smooth,

I thought I would've had everything under control.

Stupid woman,

stop falling for anything without doing enough research!

Make sure...he's single first?

Yet,

What was that we had between us yesterday?

Or am I...

a 'friend'.

Case closed,

maybe this search should just stop.

Afterall, these things are supposed to happen when you least expect it right?

Play on, play on.

B.