Sundays are nice :)

Having broken away from schoolwork quite a while now, Sundays are reverted back to its norm, and are once again, nice days to spend time with my family. I don't think I've done this in a long time, simply by sleeping in till the afternoon on the weekends, having excluding myself from a lot of family activities and ever only show up for dinners because I'm so 'exhausted' from the previous week. I think I should take this opportunity to revert back to a more 'normal' time schedule + way of life. I need to move myself back onto the right track.

This is not another one of those new year resolution kind of shit declaration. I'm serious about this, its crucial that I move back onto getting a better lifestyle.

The apartment across the street from our hotel while we stayed in Paris...

In front of the famous Gallery Lafayette, Paris.

Its probably why I felt so happy throughout the day too, waking up early I meant. I've had enough of waking up like a grumpy old nun :)

- <3 Bee

Hello, gorgeous!

'Heck yeah, I'm back to Hong Kong, babyyy,
and I'm so darn glad I am, 'cause I'm quite exhausted from the trip,
both mentally and physically.

Whitechapel Gallery, London

Brick Lane, London

Installment at the Tate Modern Museum's Turbine Hall, London

On the Millennium Bridge overlooking St.Paul's cathedral, London.

A random interconnection between two buildings, Embankment, London.

At the infamous fountain of Eros at Picadilly Circus, London

But don't take it wrong, I'm not yearning and complaining, its just that I've had enough of visiting museums day after day, studying the aesthetics of the works of the great masters...while they were visually [very] impressive, its tiring having to take in all the load of information at once, for 8 continuous days.

However, I think I've grabbed myself experiences I'll never forget; some of which are comprised of new found knowledge and some are for the sake of lifetime experiences. I'll keep them to myself i guess ;)

I know I deserve a big-yawn for this, but I have to say, I cannot appreciate Hong Kong more than ever upon my return from this 10-day trip. Its true, you never appreciate something until you lose 'em, the reason being;
I cannot stand how expensive the materials are in Europe, especially in Paris. I don't think the underground services are anywhere near being as efficient as those in Hong Kong. Houses? No thanks, I'd like to stay in a city scape area just 10 minutes away from the city's central district, not 10 hours. Staying in a suburb area could make you a targeted victim of the most gruesome crimes on the planet.

Throughout the past week...I've had the most expensive Mc Donald's meal in my lifetime (6.55 Euros for a salad meal? The current rate of Euros to HKD is 1:12 so...), seen the nicest buildings, art pieces, paintings, interiors, clothes, people ever.

That pretty much concludes my trip. Shallow I know, but I'm really not in for writing anything of a greater depth atm, not while my head's still drillo-drowsy from the plane ride >< I promise more photo updates later.

-Bee <3

Heck Harry, You're a wonder!

Harry Connick Jr. Live in Hong Kong :]

The day came when I attended Harry's show, oh I don't know if it was because I was stressed from my academic studies or was the music really that good, you kept me smiling throughout the whole show! Harry, you're a wonder :]




I tried to keep up with your fingers that crawled up and down the keyboard,
and the odd but beautiful rhythm on the drums,
then the mellow plucks on the Bass,
to the bright timbres of the Brass...
I'm sorry if there wasn't enough spirit imported into the atmosphere of the show, perhaps the arena was simply too large in size. You did awesome and I'm praying to be able to watch your other live shows in the future :]

I'll go crazy for you :D

- <3 Bee

Ooh la Vintage!

I'm officially dazzled by the aesthetic qualities of Peridots and Amethysts,
Isn't this beautiful? Its an antique ring on sale at an English antique market.
I can't wait, Harry Connick's on tomorrow night and flying on Friday :]

whopeee.

<3 Bee

Aren't they lovely :)

click to enlarge

Sorry its pixelated =P
its just of me and my sister anyway.
Taken during the weekend, at a lunch buffet. How sweet of my parents, they brought me out so I could de-stress myself for a while, breaking away from all the assignments and scraps of work.

I'm praying this week won't be such a b*tch to me :P

- <3 Bee

funny how...

Funny how...
when I see your name on my email inbox, I get a li'l tingle down my spine,
then I secretly wish it's an email just from you to me, and not for anyone else.

I don't know when that would happen, would we ever IM each other one day?
How 'bout endless hours spent chatting on the phone?
*sigh*

I want you so bad.



Just when these weekend after weekends of working on homework could get a little bit endless, it's time to realise that the London + Paris trip is but...less than 5 days away :]
Let's hope all the hard work right now is worth it, life can't be tough all throughout right?

Seeing how much the trip costs could make me understand, really, of what you mean when you tell me you're doing a lot to make me feel happy, mom&dad. Don't worry, I really do understand it, just couldn't afford to show how much I do everytime you mention it, in case I get emotional + admit it, its kinda embarrassing.

I love you all :]

- <3 Bee

Friday.

How about I post up every word you've said to me in private?

"Ruby, that's a big spelling mistake there"

Why do I always respond so coolly when on the inside I'm really so happy that my heart is about to fall out? I really can't help it, the words 'HAR HAR' slipped out of my mouth so naturally that I didn't notice they might have expressed coldness (like the many previous times) that I was not intending to give out.

I just have to always make a fool out of myself when I least want to.

You...are so cute, I think I could drown from your cuteness one day.

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" I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly"
- Chantal Kreviazuk

This song is so beautiful

- <3 Bee

I need a haircut.

The growth of my hair reminds me of just how quick time is flying by.
The last time I've had a snip was several months ago, I can't even remember when. Last year, definitely.
Now that its at the length of my chest, it makes me realise how much I've changed over the years as well... having always had short hair as a kid (I'd have heat rashes on my neck if my hair length exceeded that), ever trying to make escapes from haircuts, till now when the amount of hair on my head would be more than enough to make 5 brooms.
So yeah, point made- time flies.

I've also found out how similar I've become to that of my father. My attitude, the whole issue of being hard on the outside and soft on the inside, although I'm still frankly, not half as stubborn as he is yet, I act hard while I'd easily break in to tears, especially when I'm left on my own.
Having written and read the parent evaluation, I have to say, I'm entirely grateful of what I have with me now, so much I don't know how to respond to some of them. What is it that's driving my parents to be such responsible people? Solely because of our minute's worth satisfaction while they work away for hours, weeks, months and years?

I love you, mom and dad (s).

I'm sorry if I feed in my attitude.

Screw the love life, I think mine is PERFECT, because MY PARENTS LOVE ME.
Who needs a boyfriend when no guy could ever love you like your parents?

Gee.

I guess I should really begin working on my Math project this weekend, or I'm dead-meat.

- <3 Bee

my louvre ticket

You do the cutest things,
things I can't do anything about but stop and admire.
I adore being around you,
I love watching your every single move and gesture,
but this so-called 'perfect-image' of you has been broken, I think.

I don't know how I'll react if I would see for myself one day, what they say about you.
I think I'll cry, because in fact, you made me think a perfect creature existed so close to where I am.
It's almost like watching your dreams as they're being crushed into little pieces.
Again, this is the reality.

But it's not like you care, I make up such a small part of your life.
A strand of hair on your head would be the equivalent of the significance of me?
Would I even be of any importance?
Which reminds me, for I should have completely no say in how you wish to lead your life.

You're an art piece in the Louvre,
I'm just but one out of the I-dont-know-how-many-visitors they get per year.
I pass by, and get caught up by the aesthetically beautiful features, again, one out of the billion who's done the same in the past.
I'm not particularly rich, and have no plans in bidding you off from the exhibits, I could only keep staring, so long as my ticket is still valid.
='[
The validity period slips by each day...
I do know you're leaving the end of this year.
And we'll only ever remain in this relation, forever.
*sigh*

- <3 Bee

target of humiliation

I'm not used to losing.
In fact, I hate the idea of losing.

I'm being pin-pointed at, targeted for humiliation in a group,
and I know that,
the hinting, in combination with self realisation, makes everything pretty frickin' obvious.
Should I take it a step further and quit, just to put a stop to this, since I don't really belong there anyway.
Would anyone appreciate my involvement anyway?
"Our abilities are sloping, the standards of _ are descending"
Yes I know you're talking about me.

*sigh*

=[

- <3 Bee

Me, as of now.

Recently, I've started to have doubts about my positioning amongst my friends, my social group. I feel as if its been shifting, jerked aside even. A part of me has done something which I'm not sure about, but it's certainly let me down. Nothing feels worse than slipping down from the very top, I'd rather spend my whole life climbing non-stop.

And then its my love life - which I have an involvement of 1%?
I don't like the rumours given off from him, but not like this whole crush was appropriate to start with, so I might as well just die off. Its hard though =[
I'm waiting for my days to come around again...

BUT, life isn't as dark as it seems, I'm really quite happy otherwise. The art trip is coming up, as well as the Harry Connick Jr. Hong Kong tour :] I can't wait!

And at least I know I have people caring for me. I'm very very fortunate.

thank you to everyone who's out there to make my days brighter than they otherwise would be!

- <3 Bee

How about feeling relieved?

Satisfaction comes to me in all forms,

but most of the times, its really about when I'm feeling the most comfortable being in my own shoes. This, I've felt today, and is not something I've felt in quite a while, and which was quite unexpected, considering that I was still mumbling and quivering about how much of a disaster the day is turning out.

Well, turns out I'm wrong, but I'm happy to be wrong in this case.

I won't exactly call this a reconcilation, but I've definitely started mixing cement to fill an old crack on a pavement, or cutting down a tree to try and fix a plank in a house...

I've had interactions with my dad.

Truly amazing.

Despite my many aunts and cousin's unsucessful attempts throughout the day of trying to reconcile my dad and I, I have a personal feeling that it was the power of grandma, who lies beneath the earth of the little hill on the remote island. I think she did it, knowing her abilities in keeping us all together.

Hmm...

then it was also being present at a party, a good dinner with ma famille...

so thank you, whoever out there who's taken part in making my day a good one

- <3bee

Leaving so soon?

Starry Night by Vincent Van Gogh

Nothing is guaranteed,
there are always other possibilities because people are all different.
Looks like you've made a choice that you have to move on with your life and I guess that's good?
I've not been after the wrong guy, I've always liked men with an objective, a vision the their life.

You were amazing on stage today, really, I could not be happier to see you perform so well :]

God, its just that the news came in so suddenly, I thought I was about to lose it when. I think this is another one of those signs, telling me the jumble-jitters I currently have in my mind would only remain that way, and be able to go no further.

Hmm, wrecked plans for tomorrow. My dad finally called to drag me out of the house tomorrow, when I've already got an event scheduled for Sunday. Great job there, dad, you might as well tell me tomorrow morning. It took you 4 weeks or more for you to get over that dumb email I've sent you. GG.

Sometimes I feel tired with the many twists and turns in life, but then I realise, what fun would it be to lead a life that's but a straight drive on the highway?

"...as they always say, 'the room's always darkest before you turn on the lights'..."
I'll always remember this line.

- <3 Bee

Homework uptight!

I haven't written in a while, I know.
Here's my reason: this past school week's been hectic and it's been hell for me, having a large assignment due in every school night. I've not slept earlier than 3am, and we all know that its not exactly the most perfect sleep time...

But then today's Friday and I finally have a weekend for myself :]
I really need a de-stressing period, such as the upcoming art trip. Boy I'm really really looking forward to this!

The sleep deprivation is haunting me with its bad tempers and constant mind-blocks...I've not exactly been a very patient person, often resulting in emotional breakouts or arguments.

This is annoying me, I really don't have someone realistic I could look forward to, all I could think of is him and I'm more than old enough to understand that its not quite realistic. This is so selfish of me - my mind is telling me that I need someone to be with so that I have a vision in life, so that the 'rights' and enthusiasm could be once again injected into my veins.
=\

Laters.

Ooh i'm excited for tomorrow, "Anything Goes". G'luck, Mr.Frost!

-<3 Bee

All for nothing.

For a person with optimism, its extremely hard to lose faith in the idea that dreams do come true,
and therefore not stop hoping.
I'm in that exact position now, having dreams come true most of the times in the past, I'm finally getting a taste of what it means to live in the real world. I've learned that, in the real world, we're not supposed to expect that the events that we feel are 'supposed' to happen would happen. You don't always get it your way because there are so many people to satisfy at once. A bit late, I know, but life lesson learned nonetheless.

I've worked my butt off on a math project that I thought I'd score well on, so as to give myself a chance to score well on one math assessment for the first time...turns out this 'demo' was not even taken in, it was but a peer assessment where no marks have been recorded. What's better is that I've just received yet another math assignment, this time the formal portfolio task.

Then, for the EE session, I didn't really get the supervisor I wanted =\
Not to say that what I have now is bad, but I'd certainly be happier if I have got my own teacher.

Gosh I can't wait till Harry Connick Jr. comes, and the art trip!
Oh right, I'm not supposed to hope for too much, right?

Gee, what is it with being realistic?

- <3 Bee