Only as it's been spoken,

do I realise that I'm still who I am.

Though my recent behaviour may state that

I've moved on to becoming someone who remains a casual attitude

on the topic of relationships,

as far as I understand,

I haven't.

I've done things that would not be considered proper by some,

but though they didn't quite last,

those moments were remembered.

I don't just let anyone come to me,

without being attracted in the first place.

And I still long for a relationship that carries substance,

expecting exchanges of knowledge,

instead of just pure physical needs.

I get attached.