Its never occurred to me that you ought to be shared.
What is this all, why now?
Although I couldn't manage to say it in your face, I'll do so now, here.

Dad, I know how long you've been looking forward to this,
the past eighteen years, each progressively just making you realise more and more how lonesome single life could be, how fruitless life could get 'without child' (since I'm with mom)...
but after all these years of seeing you with your various beaus,
It seemed perfectly natural to me that you'll have bedside company,
but taking this all in an instant is hard to digest.

Is this all in perfect timing or what,
I'm leaving for school next year,
and the newborn will be here by the time I graduate,
here, a replacement?
Its not like our relationship has remained strong,
especially in the past few years,
this is oil slick poured on a highway when I'm a car with screwed up breaks,
a catalyst for a cancer,
while in hopes that this new addition would not shred whats left of us apart,
I know this is exactly what it'll do.
Actually - never mind me.

I hope to never be dependent of you again,
and I'll try hard, starting from now,
to aim to be out standing.
You, and your 'family' shall watch me succeed,
lead a splendid life,
I will do anything to avoid pleading at your feet for help,
and I will pay you back with what you've given.
My earlier years, all that you've given me,
trust me,
they're all appreciated,
even now.

Tell you what, its just your attitude that I'm sick of,
and your lack of order in life.

Finally, good luck with whatever's ahead,
I wish you great happiness, an eternity if there is one, in your marriage.
The child, bless it, hopefully the reverse of me, abiding, obedient and intellectual.


-- as for I, I'll stay strong.